In the midst of my prayer I also prayed for what is going on in my life, the good and the bad. About the things that burden my soul I keep giving them to God and pleading for His will to be done, for Him to use me full-time for His Body and to put me in the ministry He wants for me. God has called me to be a teacher of His Word, very strongly, and I will not refuse that calling, but today He set a test before me: He sent me someone He wanted me to share the gospel to…you guessed right….I didn’t share the gospel with him. Why? excuses, pride, thinking I don’t have the words. I go evangelizing on Sundays with two churches and we use the Way of the Master method of Ray Comfort and Kirk Cameron, for those who are not familiar with it, there are bills which contain the gospel message in the back, they serve as “ice-breakers” to establish a gospel presentation with someone, they are nothing more than ice-breakers and should not be seen as essential or as imperative to have. One of my excuses was that I had no bills…the Holy Spirit convicted me so much, “you don’t need bills or modern methods, all you need is the gospel, all you have is the gospel, which is the power of God to save” see, we have His words in our mouths, how dare we disobey a direct command from God? and moreover this verse:
“How then shall they call on Him in whom they have not believed? And how shall they believe in Him of whom they have not heard? And how shall they hear without a preacher? And how shall they preach unless they are sent? As it is written: “How beautiful are the feet of those who preach the gospel of peace, who bring glad tidings of good things!” But they have not all obeyed the gospel. For Isaiah says, “LORD, who has believed our report?” So then faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word of God” (Romans 10:14-17).
I decided not to share the gospel with him, the Holy Spirit was commanding me with a thunderous voice “GO! PREACH THE GOSPEL IN AND OUT OF SEASON!” but I didn’t heed His voice and turned away to keep jogging. As I brushed off, or tried to, the guilt, I sat down and thought I wouldn’t see him again. I sat listening to music as I thought of a quote about the gospel and how the modern church has corrupted the message of the true gospel “You proclaim to not be ashamed of the Gospel when the Gospel should be ashamed of you!” the words didn’t sink in right until…yes, you guessed right, I saw the man again. The Spirit again pushed me to sow the seed…I left it in my bag and decided not to talk to him, and to my shame the man actually talked to me, he just said good morning but…twice I disobeyed a direct command from the Holy Spirit. Now, God is forgiving and merciful yes, but I was ashamed at having dishonored the Lord who bought me, humbled at the thought of brushing off a divine apointment to share the gospel with a lost soul. Be careful you don’t do the same.
“Pride goes before destruction, and a haughty spirit before a fall” (Proverbs 16:18)